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Public Display of Affection

One my way to Mangalore from Kasaragod. The not so crowded bus was literally dragging itself to its destination with just the right amount of people. I was for a change happy that I got into a bus where I could park my bum into a comfortable seat beside this lady with her 5 or 6 year old boy who was dozing off to sleep. I put on my headphones and was getting comfy. The bus has just crossed Adkathbail and stopped at its usual stop for passengers to get in and out. And this lady gets in and looks around for a seat. Mine was the only seat which had place for like half a person of her size. But then this is India and thoda adjust kar lo na yaar. So she squeezes her big butt between the hand rest and me of course. I almost yelped when she sat. I can't really complain since ours is a populated country with bad public transport. Now after all this squishing and squashing I have put on my headphone and enjoying my usual music. The lady also takes out her phone since it's an hour long ...
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The safety pin is my shastra..my ayudha

Privacy and personal space is luxury in a place I live. The following entry is happening when I am sandwiched between a sleeping lady who has fallen asleep by the time the bus reached Karundakad from New Bus Stand. Well I'm traveling from Kasaragod to Mangalore which is my weekend routine. Yeah so, stuck between the sleeping lady who sways like one of those coconut trees during hurricane of Category 4 and a man who is stoic and has resemblance to Spock. The stoic figure does get agile once in a while when the conductor passes every now and then disturbing the assorted placement of people who have fit in the gaps available after all the seat have been occupied by more than the prescribed people. As I type on to my phone I get a vague idea of the stops we pass by thanks to all those loudspeakers screaming with full might outside the religious institutions. A Krishna Bhajane indicates it's Kumble Sri Gopalakrishna Devasthana and Hanuman chalisa is Arikady of course. It's also...
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Not yet an affair

How do you define this relation which is more than a one night stand and less than a summer affair ? Let me ponder and break my head when I should be studying.
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Some people

Half your life is wasted fighting the demons and dealing with the existentialist crisis. And amidst all this there are some people who make your even more difficult who live in this denial that the world that we live in is actually a fantasy and only good things happen to everybody else except them. They are some jinxed creatures to whom only bad things happen and the entire world except them is responsible. Now tell me, what are bad things? I mean if you can deal with a crisis, it's fine right. Happiness is something you create out of the situations provided to you. So it doesn't matter if good or bad things happen. And take charge and try to change things around to suit yourself than sulking and whining over these unimportant things. Now if you are to attend a function, you need to prepare as a lady. Especially if you are to drape a saree. If you know to manage it yourself then it's well and good. But if you aren't, then either fix an appointment with the beautician...
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Shit happens

The things happening around us. Can't fight against the system. It's amazing how these beaurocrats can play with your life. Look at Gurmehar and the DU issue. Do you want any more? View outside is amazing but look within and it is ....Hmmmm....rotten? Think of another word which gives that effect. People these days are so confident looking at the mirror but ....no honestly...how the fuck do you do that? Those guilt demons, don't they come and pounce on you? Forget and forgive? Keep it alive hidden under the layers. Use it to fuel the fire lit inside. One of the phases to go through compulsorily. This is the real world. That just passed was some illusion or may be something that was never meant to last.
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He gave me a hickey

February 20th 2017, Southern most tip of India it is. One heck of a day. Wasn't expecting this though. Well, always had a crush on this guy but then making out is an altogether different thing. Wasn't totally unexpected. Had been giving enough signs and finally this happens. What a day!! After so long!! Five days after Valentine's. Not that it matters(say that a lot..ain't I) Making it public like this on a blog..is it scandalous?? Ah..who cares. Feeling of bliss after such a long time. Still hungover it with flashes coming every now and then. Totally looking forward for a second encounter. But then, that is a distant dream i guess. This happened and then would that happen??
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Nostalgia

One of my friend is meeting her lover today. They keep fighting otherwise on phone. But these meetings seem to resolve all their differences. Sex is magical. Almost everything gets resolved between partners. How I wish even I could do so. Things between us have gone beyond sex right. Always try to hide behind those laughter and jokes I crack. However I try it still hurts. The thought that we did share a beautiful relationship and how you changed as time passed. You grew up you claim or maybe it was me. We both had our faults but can't it be forgotten and forgiven. No, I guess. Something are just not forgotten and forgiven. And now after all these years I am unable to bond with any man. Now I feel that I am just not meant to be with a man. That doesn't mean I don't miss it, I do. But can I do anything about it?
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